Amanda Kloots.Photo: Rich Fury/Getty
Amanda Klootsrecognizes that grief isn’t simply a phase to pass through.
For Kloots, 40, who has been a single mom to sonElvis, 2, for almost two years now, grief is like an onion. “You know how you peel off an onion and it makes you cry? I feel like grief, why it never ends is because we continue going on through life, right? So if you think about it that’s your grief, that onion.”
She added, “Every time Elvis does something cute and I wish Nick was there to see it, that’s like peeling off a layer and it makes you cry.”
Kloots looked ahead, saying, “When Elvis gets married one day, it’ll be another, like, five layers that I’ll peel off.”
“When you your person dies, a lot of people will say, ‘Don’t worry. In a year you’re going to be so much better.’ And you are, in a way. But it I wish somebody would say “Don’t worry. Grief never ends, and it’s okay,'” she said. “It will always make you cry, because that person will always hold a special place in your heart. It’s not going to go anywhere. You just learn how to grow around that grief.”
Nick Cordero and Amanda Kloots with son Elvis Eduardo.Amanda kloots/instagram
Most recently, theDancing with the Starsfinalist said she was having a rough day and asked Cordero for some light. “Nick, I really need to sign on what to do here. I’m gonna make it super specific: I want to see the word ‘Believe,'” Kloots told Cordero.
After making the request, Kloots let it go and went to a friend’s with Elvis. As she prepared to leave her friend’s place, she caught site of something in the rearview mirror.
“It was aBlack Lives Mattersign, but I have a Black Lives Matter sign and mine said ‘Black Lives Matter,'” she said. “This was like a unique sign that I’ve actually never seen anywhere else, and literally the second word, in all capitals, is the word ‘BELIEVE’ and then everything else is tiny.”
Less than two hours after asking Cordero for a sign, there it was. “I did a double take and I was like, ‘Oh my God! Okay. Okay, I hear you!'”
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Cordero’s presence was also felt while Kloots wrote herbookLive Your Life.
“In writing this book, I’ve felt very invigorated and inspired,” she said. “I’ve felt like Nick has been like right beside me cheering me on the whole time, guiding me through it. There’s something that just feels very right about it.”
source: people.com
