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ABCs Bachelor In Paradise stars Michael Allio

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Michael Alliois reflecting on the highs and lows of 2023.

“For me, New Year’s acts as a checkpoint in my life… an opportunity to place the past twelve months under a microscopic lens and reflect with a fresh set of eyes,” he wrote alongside photos of him and his 7-year-old son, James.

“For some reason unbeknownst to me, it always feels more honest and unbiased… perhaps it’s because I’ve allowed enough time for it to make sense? Perhaps the reason doesn’t matter at all… just knowing that it feels different is good enough for me.”

The reality star went on to share how that the last year has been “an emotional roller coaster.” He added that he has experienced “so many highs and lows that it’s become a year too difficult to define.”

“One thing is for certain, this year I struggled with finding balance,” he explained. “Whether it was managing a demanding work schedule, spending quality time with James, blocking off enough time for personal health or nurturing relationships… it felt as if the day always ran out of daylight.”

He continued: “I think I wasted too many hours worrying about things outside of my control. This year, I plan on changing that.”

DANIELLE MALTBY, MICHAEL ALLIO

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However, the year was not solely filled with trials and tribulations for Allio, who also shared some of his highlights from 2023.

Allio also shared his hopes for the new year, explaining, “For the first time in a LONG time, I can honestly say… I’m on the right path. Things feel good. Things feel right. I feel whole and ya know what? That feels pretty damn good.”

“There’s so much positive energy in the air and excitement on the horizon that I can’t help but be hopeful. 2024 is set up to be the best year yet!” he added. “Normally, I create a long list of New Year’s resolutions… but this year I only have one. It’s simple yet challenging. This year, my new year’s resolution is… da da duh….to be kinder to myself."

He concluded with his message with a note to himself, writing, “Dear Michael, I’m so proud of you. Keep your head up… you’re doing great. Life is complicated but one thing is not… I’m grateful that you exist. Love, Yourself.”

“I guess I’ll just come out with it. We’re not together anymore,” he onJason Tartick’sTrading Secretspodcast. “Yeah it’s really, it’s not what we planned. We both threw a lot into this relationship, and it’s really awful when it doesn’t work out.”

“You mourn the loss, not of just that person and that friend in your life, but also the future that you had envisioned,” Allio continued. “And it’s to no fault of hers.”

DANIELLE MALTBY, MICHAEL ALLIO

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