Pamela Andersonis reflecting onone “disaster” of a marriage.The actress (who is currently single and living in her grandparents' former farmhouse on Vancouver Island, Canada, with her five dogs)recalled toVanity Fairthat while renovating her home during the pandemic, she began to “romanticize everything.““Everyone was looking good — all the contractors that were here,” said Anderson.Anderson then marriedDan Hayhurst, a builder and her bodyguard, on Christmas Eve 2020 at her home. Theybroke upless than a year later.“It ended up being a disaster,” she recalled toVanity Fairof the short marriage.Additionally, shetoldThe Sunday Timesin a recent interview that getting romantic with her contractor “was stupid, and I do regret that.” She said of the marriage, “It was worse than any of them. And I realized, ‘Oh my God, I’m caught up in this whole thing, what am I doing?’ It just truck me, this is another disaster. … I was paying for everything, cooking, cleaning for everybody. And so I just got out of it as soon as I could.“Soon after she split from her fourth husband in January 2022, Anderson began to look back on her life and compile her memoirLove, Pamelaand work on the documentaryPamela, a Love Story.Anderson appeared on the British talk showLoose Womenback in February 2021 alongside Hayhurst for an interview over video call, with the then-newlyweds answering questions about their nuptials while in bed. Anderson said she and Hayhurst met on her family property. “He was working here and I got stuck here during COVID and we stuck together,” she said.“He’s the kinda guy I would have met if I didn’t go round the world and get crazy,” she added at the time. “It’s nice to be with a real man who can actually change a lightbulb. He’s useful. It’s a new thing.“Emma McIntyre/Getty Images for SiriusXMNever miss a story — sign up forPEOPLE’s free weekly newsletterto get the biggest news of the week delivered to your inbox every Friday.Anderson hadtwo sons— Brandon, 26, and Dylan, 25 — with ex-husbandTommy Lee, whom she wed in 1995. She also went on tomarry Kid Rock, Rick Salomon (they wed twice but one of the marriages was annulled) and Hayhurst. In 2020, shemarried film producer Jon Petersfor a total of 12 days, though the union was never official since they didn’t file the paperwork.Now, the actress feels content without needing to always have a partner in her life. She toldVanity Fair, “I’ve learned to try and do this without a life preserver, without having anyone around me to console me. I have to console myself. That’s been the hardest part of the journey — to go, I’m okay on my own … with my dogs. I need my dogs. I can’t bethatalone.“Added Anderson, “I had this wild, bumpy life and met a lot of interesting people along the way and had a lot of interesting love affairs. But I feel like my life is more romantic now than ever. I have dinner for one or with my dogs. I’m the same person with or without somebody. Rose petals in the bathtub, making my own rose oils, making my own candles. I’m kind of crafty all of a sudden.“Her new memoir,Love, Pamelaand Netflix documentary,Pamela, a Love Story,are both out Tuesday, Jan. 31.

Pamela Andersonis reflecting onone “disaster” of a marriage.

The actress (who is currently single and living in her grandparents' former farmhouse on Vancouver Island, Canada, with her five dogs)recalled toVanity Fairthat while renovating her home during the pandemic, she began to “romanticize everything.”

“Everyone was looking good — all the contractors that were here,” said Anderson.

Anderson then marriedDan Hayhurst, a builder and her bodyguard, on Christmas Eve 2020 at her home. Theybroke upless than a year later.

“It ended up being a disaster,” she recalled toVanity Fairof the short marriage.

Additionally, shetoldThe Sunday Timesin a recent interview that getting romantic with her contractor “was stupid, and I do regret that.” She said of the marriage, “It was worse than any of them. And I realized, ‘Oh my God, I’m caught up in this whole thing, what am I doing?’ It just truck me, this is another disaster. … I was paying for everything, cooking, cleaning for everybody. And so I just got out of it as soon as I could.”

Soon after she split from her fourth husband in January 2022, Anderson began to look back on her life and compile her memoirLove, Pamelaand work on the documentaryPamela, a Love Story.

Anderson appeared on the British talk showLoose Womenback in February 2021 alongside Hayhurst for an interview over video call, with the then-newlyweds answering questions about their nuptials while in bed. Anderson said she and Hayhurst met on her family property. “He was working here and I got stuck here during COVID and we stuck together,” she said.

“He’s the kinda guy I would have met if I didn’t go round the world and get crazy,” she added at the time. “It’s nice to be with a real man who can actually change a lightbulb. He’s useful. It’s a new thing.”

Emma McIntyre/Getty Images for SiriusXM

Pamela Anderson visits SiriusXM’s ‘The Howard Stern Show’ at SiriusXM Studios

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Anderson hadtwo sons— Brandon, 26, and Dylan, 25 — with ex-husbandTommy Lee, whom she wed in 1995. She also went on tomarry Kid Rock, Rick Salomon (they wed twice but one of the marriages was annulled) and Hayhurst. In 2020, shemarried film producer Jon Petersfor a total of 12 days, though the union was never official since they didn’t file the paperwork.

Now, the actress feels content without needing to always have a partner in her life. She toldVanity Fair, “I’ve learned to try and do this without a life preserver, without having anyone around me to console me. I have to console myself. That’s been the hardest part of the journey — to go, I’m okay on my own … with my dogs. I need my dogs. I can’t bethatalone.”

Added Anderson, “I had this wild, bumpy life and met a lot of interesting people along the way and had a lot of interesting love affairs. But I feel like my life is more romantic now than ever. I have dinner for one or with my dogs. I’m the same person with or without somebody. Rose petals in the bathtub, making my own rose oils, making my own candles. I’m kind of crafty all of a sudden.”

Her new memoir,Love, Pamelaand Netflix documentary,Pamela, a Love Story,are both out Tuesday, Jan. 31.

source: people.com